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::Making Grown Men Cry Since 1992
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Let’s be honest about this: Poetry scares people. It can be a challenge to understand and refers to French people a lot. School doesn’t help, since most of the time teenagers are forced to read “The Rime of the Ancient Mariner” and count syllables in Robert Frost’s work. While I now, as a poet, enjoy both of those things (in terribly small, occasional doses), at 16 I would have rather read transcripts of “The Lawrence Welk Show” than study poetry.So, until about the age of 21, I thought I hated the stuff. I studied literature but only scanned through anything with funky line endings and rhymes. Then in my final year of college, I was blessed to take classes with two poets, Kathleen West and Tony Hoagland, that changed not only the way I looked at poetry, but at writing, human understanding and myself. Though T.S. Eliot dubbed April “the cruelest month,” since 1996, it’s also National Poetry Month, an opportunity for the converted to spread the gospel. The springtime celebration was begun by the Academy of American Poets in an effort to save poetry from the dust heap of indifference. Like Black History Month and Women’s History Month, National Poetry Month seeks to fill the gaps in our education and understanding of poetry. Is some poetry plodding and pretentious? Sure, but a ton of it is shocking and sexy and sad. This year, we asked some of our local talent to help testify. Each poet submitted an example of his or her work and, per a recommendation from former Santa Fe Poet Laureate Valerie Martinez, wrote a bit about the origin and process of the poem, adding to the overall splendification of your reading experience. Splendification isn’t a word, you say? Oh, but now it is—such is the power of the Poet. Viva Poetry!
September, 2001Who scatters the bones, bus stop, sun.Torso wrapped tight. Trigger button. How many. Heavy. Much. You with the dark hair. Youwith the conviction. Youwith your paradisal maidens.Come crashing in. Deliberate.Surprise. There is no music, no gobletsno table of golden loaves.If I am virgin, it matters not.Your eyes are disparate—knuckles, arms, windows—blown apart. Now, find your handsand there is one task: harvest.This is how the dead work.BECAUSE you have scattered flesh, marrow, breath, writ the bloody writ.THUS you’ll live every specific agony. Your own. Each one. Family. Every friend. It goes on.NOW gather it.Make it whole again.Don’t ask how.Here you go, wandering:shrapnel, earlobes,inky red-blue, bits of bone.Everywhere. Wherever.What? No light? (and I am so comely)Messy? Cold? What comes together sparks, makes heat, sumptuous, whole and lovely,glows and glows.from World to World (University of Arizona Press, 2005)The Poet’s ProcessThis poem was actually written before 9/11, in the first week of September 2001 and after a particularly terrible summer of suicide bombings in Israel. My anger is apparent. I had no idea what was lying in wait. What might the afterworld be like for those who take so many lives on their way out? And what of those 72 virgins that some suicide bombers believe wait for them upon their martyrdom? This poem, in the voice of one of those virgins, describes what I imagine is a more deserved fate for those who wreak such violence upon others.
ChimeraFor Fay ChiangI caught you preparing a dinner of breaded shrimpFrom Costco. We should expect more.You were in Topanga between the Santa Monica MountainsAnd the blue water, flew to San Francisco forAnother funeral, another Chinese wake—This one, Bing, who, with your father and Paul, openedA shirt pressing factory in Jackson Heights. ButThey like my father weren’t businessmen, shut it down.The fall arrives as a gift in New Mexico afterThe sun-stricken summer. Even the frail grassesAnd wildflowers along the arroyo nod their headsIn gratitude. Soon, you’ll return to East 4th for anotherBone scan, surgery, another recuperation.This week in July was as it always wasMe trailing you on the sidewalk as you pursued the chimeraOf surgeons through the grit of Chinatown air. ButThere was an unseen figure in our conversation.That week was a narrative of missed connections: you tooFatigued even to clean house because of chemoMe by the weight of all that knowledge.That shadow was inside you now: it wasA gate, bad code, waveform, a plethora of starsThe Poet’s ProcessI wrote the first draft in 2003 after visiting a friend diagnosed with stage IV metastatic breast cancer. The use of second-person “you” is meant to give the poem a conversational tone and flow.Then I forgot about the poem. This year I rediscovered and finished the poem to read at the book party in New York for 7 Continents 9 Lives (Bowery Books), by my friend Fay Chiang last month. I’d read her book, adding autobiographical details that I’d omitted in previous versions. My reading about cancer and music informed the poem as well.
Eva at Point IsabelAt Point IsabelWe repeated“Stay on the path, this way”While she selected an openingThrough the rocksClimbed down goat-likeTo wade at low tideCame back up the pathOn her timetableWhite paws caked with grey oozeNear the little bridge leading to the prairieShe liked to slip down towards murky waterOnce more until she heard“Bridge, Eva, bridge”Took the challenge and raced acrossBefore we managed with our Two only legs apieceMercurial loner girlShe liked to run far from sightOnce up the little riseThen rejoin usOne of the fastest onesExcept for other Aussies or GreyhoundsShe knew hosing off with cold waterWas required wendingOur way back overA liver treat to get the leash Back on and always mad afterwardsShaking it offDespising the leashRunning alongside sea waterLoner girl La EvaThe Poet’s ProcessThe writing of “Eva at Point Isabel” began with the impulse to describe my dog Eva’s exuberance and eccentricity. Because she was a fast runner I went through many drafts trying to eliminate words that were slowing the poem down. I wanted to convey a walking pace for the people and a running pace for her. At low tide some of the water was stagnant and she enjoyed that the most; part of her general mischievousness. It was only in the final drafts that I was able to come up with the line “mercurial loner girl,” which conveys her essence. The entire process took several months.
First Day of Seventh GradeMy sister was sure she’d left a paper at the elementary school. So we broke in. At eleven o’clock the classrooms are all blur and paper. If you don’t steal anything the cameras don’t care.While she pushed on the lock, I waited by the nurse’s office. How I had prayed for the threat of lice, the soft parting of hair with a tongue-depressor and the first hint of sex. But her office was all threat now, dim floodlight and a jar of cotton swabs.I’d always wanted to know this place, to trace its secret scalp at midnight. But there, then, the building did not prickle, and the cameras rolled on slow, helpless.from Freshwater Dredge (Destructible Heart Press, 2007)The Poet’s ProcessLike so much of The Dredge Cycle [of which Freshwater Dredge is the first volume], this did and did not happen. The speaker’s longing—to see the building’s true self, to be privileged with this knowledge—is pretty familiar, but I never broke into my elementary school. Writing it became about vicariously reliving my childhood. The speaker and his sister are far braver than my sister and I ever were. As I realized their plan to break in, I started to reconcile my childhood with his, and the last line became as much about his epiphany as about our worlds intersecting. That happens in these poems a lot.